The Cupcake Chronicles

I have to get my emotions in check. I am in control. I will, I will, I will find ME. Amanda. Myself. The soul search is on. Unfortunatly, I think that search is going to lead me down a road of realization that I am not who I have been trying to be for too long. I'm not that person. I don't know that I ever have. But I think I have faked it for so long, that people who know me are telling me I'm just "going through a tough time". What if I'm not? What if I'm acutally starting to go through the begining of a great time? Then what? I guess this is what happens when you fake it for so long.