The Cupcake Chronicles

Well the divorce is on it's way. And I've been hurting a little bit. But it's what I want, and it's time to start moving on. Until last night, I thought I was fine. A few drinks made me realize otherwise. So if there is anyone reading this, I can say with absolute certainty now...divorce is hard on everyone. Even the person who WANTS it....it effing blows. There are shattered peices of my life all around me. I wanted this, and I knew what I was going to have to sacrifice...but I never imagined watching my life go in a spiral like it has. It's in front of me falling and I can't catch it. And I'm trying like hell. And I don't want him back. Ever. But I do want my life back. I can't function. I am putting a happy face outside. But on the inside...

my house is a mess. i am a mess. my dog is even a mess. i have to many things on my plate, and i want to be supermom, and do them all, and i'm failing miserably. i don't know what would be worse at this time. giving it all up and admiting that i can't do it, or trying, failing, and looking like a douche bag when i fall on my ass? i think i'm going to just try and hope i don't fall. and if do, i just hope the people around me that see me do it dont ridicule me. but the way things are going now, there wont be anyone at all. i guess that is a plus, right?